Life Reboot

Sometimes in life as in computers we need to do a reboot.
For the past year I was unhappy with myself, I did not know how to fix the issues.
I decided the only way I could find happiness is to do a reboot on my life.
When I sat down and really went through why I was miserable and what needed to change the only one who could fix anything was myself.
I sat down and planned out what had changed for the better, the worse, and the steps I needed to do in order become who I was, what I need to do, in order to reach my potential.
I am sure I will repeat this process yearly, if nothing else to clean the cobwebs of life and have an honest look at my behavior.
My father was a wise man, in so many ways. I remember one day asking him
Why i kept feeling strongly I was supposed to marry my ex if it ended anyway.
He said Jill you didn't marry the wrong man, he became the wrong man.
And for him you became the wrong woman. You both grew, changed, and did not have the relationship you each wanted.
Now my ex andc myself are great friends 10 years later and I wish him nothing but the greatest happiness.
But we all need to admit our weak points, the things that are not so great about our character and moist of all admit it, Owen it, changed it.
I am rebooting my personal hard drive now, and hoping i can have my life be better, I will be stronger, and  those who love me will be alot happier.
Reach out to old boyfriends, girlfriends,  your children, etc ask them t o honestly tell you what you shouldn't do, how you can help yourself.
Warning this period will not be fun, but your future will thank you.
Those who love you will thank you.
We all do things we are not aware of that are not our best side
We say or do stupid things, or hurtful things. We exaggerate, or remember
Things may be differently. So a reboot is emotionally and physically hard, but your future self will thank you.

Life is not easy, people do not have to like,agree, or approve of what we do
But we have to be able to face ourselves in the mirror first.
And while I am at it, if you make your significant other feel wanted, needed, loved, and desired daily it's a love reboot if your not doing that start now with
No expectations of anything for yourself, because if we all focused it every day on our partner we wouldn't need or want anyone else,or anything else, and our partner will reciprocate it o f should.
Here is to life ahead, life behind, and hoping  my future includes waking up
Every day crazy about someone, knowing they feel the same way.
And hoping a year from now I like the lady in the mirror slot more.

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