Trusting In Something More
In life we have dreams, hopes, we plan, and we fail, we get disappointed, we disappoint others.
We learn as we grow that some dreams come true without much effort, others fail after we have tried
and done all we can. We are hurt by those we love, let down, we hurt those we love, we let them down.
Life is about a series of hellos and goodbyes. Some are small quiet we might even forget them or be an individual who is forgotten.
We get our hearts broken, we fall in love sometimes over and over and for some we never find the one
we feel like we were meant to be with, for others they meet them when they are young and are lucky
enough to hold onto them throughout their life.
I have been on a rollercoaster of emotions the last few months. Health, job, great news, huge disappointments and realizing more and more every day I need to trust in something more.
For me that is, My Heavenly Father who although I may not understand at times,
I know he has the bigger picture. Trusting in something we don't like or do not understand is the
hardest part of this old life.
Sometimes I can see the trials are to build character, patience, understanding, strength.
Sometimes the trials are to break us so he can rebuild us after we hit our knees and realize he
is the only one who can help us.
We are also guided and hopefully we listen when he wants us to be the words, the hugs, the wisdom
someone else may need. We also should appreciate and thank him when he sends the right person
at the right time, to provide what we need.
I have faced the realization that we are all just still his children, learning constantly. falling, getting
right back up and being grateful he forgives us and allows us to make the changes.
I am not my worst mistake or worst choice; I am always evolving into whomever it is I was meant to be.
So many judge either who I was or who they think I am without getting to know who I actually am.
This is sad, it makes me try to give others the chance to know them and their story.
We are all one choice away from being better or worse in our life and most of us will choose both I suppose it all depends on where we are within ourselves with God or whomever we believe in.