Some people do..letting go, hanging on

In the words of a great song....
"I know your hurt i know its my fault,
but i've kept i'm sorry locked in a vault.
most wouldnt forgive me what i've put you through, and words by themselves cant right all the wrongs most people dont change but some people do...
Who i was years ago is not who is here tonight, early morning actually.
But my heavenly father and i laid this to rest years ago and he forgave me, i forgave myself. I dont expect this to change how you feel, but you will find through your own life that you hope your mistakes stay gone.
Today i said goodbye to someone i thought i needed inside to protect myself
and tonight i found the other side of life.
When i needed to hear holding on it was letting go. When i needed someone to hold me i found i could stand alone.
I hope you never lose the one you feel like you need forever. It hurts when you realize there are no more chances to make things right. But after So many years i let go not because someone was there to protect my heart the way you would...
But because i felt you stand behind me and hold me back and then let me go.
Nothing changes what i felt but i know you lived me anyway no matter how many mistakes i made. I had to give someone their heart back today because i could never love them not like they wanted.
i hope you find that love that takes your breath away, gives you strength, and makes you the best version of yourself.
I hope you know its safe, and that you will never need anything else.
and i pray you never let go...and when. i am not here to hold you when you cry, or need me to just be mom you will know that you still have a father in heaven who does.
and i will always be there...
i hope someday we can laugh again, start a new relationship, and you will feel loved, safe, and happy.


Here I go stepping out now letting go of all my fears and ghosts and i am finding and enbracing life again. Right now letting those who have never seen this side at least meet her, mostly i have missed myself.
So all of life awaiting if i teach you anything i hope its passion for everything not ever being afraid to love..to forgive..to forgive yourself...to start again no matter how many times


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