Finding my way back home

For a year I have felt as if I needed to change and go back to
Who I use to be, who I was meant to be.
Bad decisions, broken feelings, I knew that I did not like who
I was turning into, Heavenly Father was trying to get my attention and I was ignoring it. Plenty of other people would say or do things and I refused to pay attention.
Years ago I met you, I knew that there was something stronger then anything I had felt in years. But you needed to go your way
And I knew I had to wish you the best.
Right after I started down this road of forgiveness and rebirth you walked back into my life.
Our personal struggles were enough to scare someone away
From either of us, but somehow the bond  between us exsists.
We all are meant to be in others lives, we are meant to help them
Learn from them. Each day since your return I have worked harder, been more driven. Our friendship the beauty you have brought to my life teaches me to strive harder so I can be there
To help someone else.
I set goals, cross things off my list I need to remove from my behavior and I believe that at the end of this journey there
Will be light, laughter, beauty and love. My Heavenly Father will forgive me and I will forgive myself.

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