Who Am I?? Who do you want me to be?

You want me to be the all smiles,calm,happy,person you knew or remember me to be.
Someone else remembers a vixen who loved singing with the band dressing in cute tiny clothes.
Someone else wants the blonde bombshell they met at a class reunion who they tried to talk into less desirable things.
Another remembers a prude they couldn't get a goodnight kiss from who made fun of me because I said I wanted to wait for love.
Then there is the person who remembers the scared girl who curled up crying because of a dream of a real moment.
One person remembers the strong,confident in control,speaker who could control a room and get them clapping.
Then there are those who just plain think I am nuts.
There are even those who knew me better then I know myself.
My family knew one, some friends knew one,each of my husband's knew another.
I know 5 children who could each tell stories..

Who am I? Who should I be? I can smile make you think
I am on cloud 9, or make you think I hit bottom.
I can be the overworked,overtired, lonely lady who is
Never comfortable in her own skin.

Who do I want to be? The one who always calls it the way
I see it, the one who quietly smiles and makes you think all is ok.
The one who laughs more then I cry, the one who misses her children,and grandchildren the moment they are gone,
The lady who will always wish she could go back to that day,
Tell you I am scared and please be the one to save me from having to live without you.
I am loved by people who love me no matter what even though I am of no relation but claim me as one of their own.
I am a mother,sister,daughter,friend,ex wife, ex girlfriend, but mos5 importantly I have good days bad days, and will be a little or a lot of each,or none,but I am always one thing.
I am a daughter of my God who blessed me to live this incredible life and I am truly blessed. Maybe I was none of the rest, maybe all of them maybe bits and pieces but every day I change grow and become more of who I hope everyone will want in their life.

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