My Blog Jill Ferrin Bailey

You want me to be the all smiles,calm,happy,person you knew or remember me to be. Someone else remembers a vixen who loved singing with the band dressing in cute tiny clothes. Someone else wants the blonde bombshell they met at a class reunion who they tried to talk into less desirable things. Another remembers a prude they couldn't get a goodnight kiss from who made fun of me because I said I wanted to wait for love. Then there is the person who remembers the scared girl who curled up crying because of a dream of a real moment. One person remembers the strong,confident in control,speaker who could control a room and get them clapping. Then there are those who just plain think I am nuts. There are even those who knew me better then I know myself. My family knew one, some friends knew one,each of my husband's knew another. I know 5 children who could each tell stories.. Who am I? Who should I be? I can smile make you think I am on cloud 9, or make you think I hit bot...

I felt forever as if I wondered if anyone could see in me who I truly am and accept it. Then it happened first talk,first laugh, And someone who could call me on me. Hmm just lost my heart And so not wanting or needing it and yet somehow perfectly imperfect, just like life. One day one moment at a time. Not sure how other then I am embracing each moment. Not sure How many moments we each have but yet I only know I have to Embrace the wonderful moments for what they are. A friend of mine made the comment today how I was heading into something I was meant too be here for. Not trying to sound too private but I would rather have a few days or weeks or months of imperfect perfection then a lifetime Of settling for the wrong one, I leave a part behind as always But I embrace the future ahead. It will be fun,crazy, and perhaps the hardest thing I have ever done but I will hold on while I can, Pray every day for one more, and love with all I have for all those I should until my job h...