My Blog Jill Ferrin Bailey

So here I am facing several choices in my life and i am not sure which way I will choose to go.I know my goals to get a team together and give others closure is so important in my life. So many cases to finish. When you have a traumatic event happen and never find closure I believe it either destroys you or becomes an obsession to right the wrongs. Most of the time i do okay not great or special in many areas but this is the only thing i have done right in my life. Now i have a team to help put together, relationships to discover and i will either lose myself, find peace, or just quietly do both. I know there are people who i dont even feel worthy to help but i also know God puts me where i am needed and when. Mistakes made years ago things i know God forgave me of, has turned into  a different kind of beast growing arms and legs. So be careful what you do today you may pay for it the rest of your life. Lets see update on work, check, update on love life, well thats another be...

Humpty Dumpty cannot be put back together again. Sometimes we are so broken inside there are not enough things you can do or hear to heal. Just knowing tbat when i am gone perhaps thats when i will find peace, forgiveness. Our past is not always easy to put behind us and sometimes the ghost of our past comes back to put the final nail in. Even though i realize Heavenly Father loves me and forgives me when its those you love the most who cant its the most painful. There are just sometimes moments you have to admit your broken and you have failed to change and heal and all the progress you thought you made is washed away. They say truth sets you free but sometimes truth also needs you to face it no matter how badly it hurts.